Wordless Wednesday

Pedicures with the BFF's....

Mamavation Monday

First off I want to say how bummed out I am that I totally flaked on this campaign. To be honest I have no idea how Kim and Rachel have been doing with their weight loss. I haven't supported them or any of my sistas and for that I am ashamed. I cannot believe it has already been 7 weeks.
I have not been good AT ALL with any sort of healthy eating or exercise. I really want to get back on the wagon and start all over again. I HAVE TO!
I'm not going to write some long post full of excuses about how stressed out I've been with family drama. "Been There...Done That" It is what it is... right? Moving on....

The summer is an easier time for me to eat healthy and get in exercise, so I am hoping to do better this time around. *fingers crossed*

I have a busy week full of meetings, kindergarten screenings at the school and alot of PTO stuff to work on. Tomorrow night there will be no time to cook so I plan on getting us all Subway sandwiches for dinner. It's just as easy as drive thru but a much healthier choice for all of us. I might even venture out and try something new. The new Orchard Chicken Salad looks pretty awesome.

Hopefully I will get home from my meeting in time to make it to the show.
Have a great week everyone
luv ya all
xoxoxo

The Karate Kid

For the last 3 weeks Thomas has been taking Karate classes at his school on a trial basis. Yesterday was graduation at the Karate Studio. He was so very proud to earn his white belt and diploma. Of course he wanted to continue taking lessons, so we signed him up for the summer session. With that he received his uniform and doesn't he look too cute in it?
He couldn't wait to put it on to practice his "moves".
These are the moments I want to stop and cherish.... my little man is growing up and before I know it he'll be talking about going to college. :(

Have a great Sunday
xoxo

My Bucket List

In my post from yesterday (It's been a while) I talked about making a "Bucket List" for myself. This is a list of things I want / need to do to make my life more manageable and enjoyable before I actually "kick the bucket". I have to look at it this way: "If I don't accomplish these (or at least try).... I'll probably kick the bucket way before my time"

Here we go.....

• Get this freaking weight off, once and for all.... I probably have almost 100lbs to lose. Honestly I would be happy 75lbs or what ever weight would make me a normal size 14. I want OUT of the plus sizes in the worst way.
• Get out of debt! This is a big one too. I might even do a whole post on my debt and financial situation. I have a Dave Ramsey book and think his philosophy will work for me. The other thing that goes along with this is being better with the way I spend my money.
  
• Get a tattoo, I know it's not a "life altering" one but I've been talking about it for a long time and just want to "go for it" why the hell not, right?
• Go back to school, I never went to college and man do I regret that now. Not sure what I want to go for. Everytime I think about this, it scares me to death. But the whole point of this list is to actually get over my fears and do it knowing it will better my life, not make it worse. (nothing at this point could make it worse.)
  
• Go back to work, not just work...a career. I will probably need to finish the school thing first. My husband is disabled and it's looking like he will never be able to go back to work. I need to get a job in order to have some sort of a retirement plan. I figure if I can get on that in the next year or so, I still would have a good 25yrs to build it up.
  
• Work on all my relationships, continue and possibly repair the ones that mean the most and forget about the ones that are toxic and no good for me. This would include my marriage, it's not at in a very good place right now. I need to either see if this will work for the long haul or if it's beyond repair. NOT EASY
  
• Get over myself, hahahaha this will be one of the hardest to do. I am not the center of anyone's universe but my own. I need to get that through my thick skull. I CANNOT help or fix anyone but myself. I am (but would never admit it before) a spoiled rotten, controlling bitch sometimes and need to NOT be that way anymore.
  
• Be the best mother to my children I can be. Teach them to be independent of me. I spoil them and do too much for them and that's not helping them or me.
  
• Do more fun things as a family. My oldest is going to be a senior in High School next year and then he'll be off to college. We need to make the most out of this time together.
  
• Be better organized, I used to be way better at this. I think it goes to show, when your life is a state of chaos so is your house.
• Get our own place, whether it's an apartment or a house, I really don't care. We NEED to get out of here. This living situation is one of those "toxic" things I talked about before.

That is all I can think of for now, I'm sure I have forgotten some stuff.
It's a start, and I can add to it as I go along....that's the good thing about it being my bucket list.

Thanks
xoxo

It's Been a While...

It has been quite a while since I've written a blog post. I've tried several times over the last month and a half and just couldn't bring myself to finish one.
To say I've had some drama going on here is an understatement. I live in a never ending fucking soap opera without all the money, good looking people and big houses. I guess that would make what goes on here, more like an episode of Jerry Springer (not even kidding).

I am turning 40 in just 8 short days and this is sooo NOT where I want my life to be. I never really thought about what I wanted out of life, but I can tell you right now....it isn't THIS.
I didn't dream of having some awesome career. I always knew I wanted to be a Mom and never thought much past that.
I didn't think that my life would consist of having a disabled husband, living next door to my in-laws, dealing with a severe alcoholic brother-in-law, not having any contact with two out of three of my step-children (and now two step-grandchildren) and the one step-child and grandson I do have a relationship with, would be strained at the moment. Believe me when I tell you, I'm not even touching the tip of the iceberg that is my SUCK-ASS life.

I am grateful for my family, friends and two sons. Those are the people and relationships I'm going to focus 100% of my attention on now. It won't be easy considering the crazies all live next door and in the same town as me, but I have to TRY. (for my sanity)

I am going to make a "bucket list" of sorts.... it will consist of things I want and need to do.
Think I'll make that a separate post. (hey, I need all the help I can get lately)

Happy Mother's Day

Hope Everyone Has A Happy Mother's Day.
All I know is, I have the Best Mommy in the Whole Wide World!
(dang, now I really want one of those Chocolate Chip Cookie Cakes)
YUM YUM

To Do Tuesday

I haven't done a To Do Tuesday list in a few weeks, but I wanted to throw a quick one up here.
I don't know why... I don't have time for this. My list is literally a mile long and just keeps getting longer by the minute. If you want to make yourself a To Do Tuesday list to keep yourself accountable for all the crap you say you "need" to do for the week... then go check out Lisa at Crazy Adventures in Parenting. She is the creator of this cruel meme that makes me INSANE every week. LOL

I do want to add, I saw (but didn't have time to read yet) that Lisa had done a whole week of "A week in my life" series on her blog and have to say when I get my act together I would like to do something like that. Although, it will probably make me and all of you realize I should be locked up in a padded room somewhere.. but hell, it's a good week's worth of blog posts, right?

Well, now it is on to "The List" (ugh.. )

• Clean, Clean, Clean... this goes for everything in my house (ie. closets, floors, shower, pantry, frig, cabinets, laundry, rugs)
  
• Finish cleaning the deck furniture and repaint my wicker chairs
• Set up/decorate/clean up for Teacher Appreciation Week at school everyday.. (as the PTO we are providing breakfast items all week, plus on Wed. we are doing a big Cinco-de-Mayo luncheon for the teachers) should be fun..
  
• Bake sombrero cookies for Wed. (got the idea from FamilyFun.com)
  
• Pick up 60 Dunkin Donuts gift cards for all the teachers/staff
  
• Haircut for myself on Wed (holy crap, I'm in desperate need of one.. it is about a month overdue.. you don't even want to see my bang-situation)
  
• Karate for Thomas Tues and Thurs.. (plus , as a PTO officer I have to stay to make sure all kids are picked up..this was a fundraiser for us along with a Karate Studio here in town.) not sure how I got sucked into that one.
  
• Dinner list for the week... ( I really need to start cooking again, I have been sooo bad about feeding my kids CRAP lately)
  
• Clip coupons/do grocery store list
  
• Pay bills/do the May budget.. (yeah, yeah, yeah..I know it is already the 4th)
  
• Sign my son Nick up for Pre-Calculus class at the local Community College

Ok...that's it for me for now. I'm sure I have forgotten several things, but I have a shit-load of laundry to put away and a dirty bathroom that is calling my name.

Have a great week.

Mamavation Monday

Well well well...... here I am again, back to give this another shot. This whole losing weight/eating healthy this is NOT EASY. I have been so overwhelmed with life, stress and a cold/virus thingy (it kicked my whole family's ASSES) that once again I was not paying attention to what I should be doing.
I do want to tell you guys, that I was so upset with some family drama on Friday that I just put on my sneakers and went for a very very long walk. *OUCH* can I tell you how much my shins STILL hurt!!??? I am so out of shape plus, walking that much while very emotional I wasn't even thinking about the pain. It felt good though, but I'm sure if I had a pair of Earth Footwear sneakers I would have burned a hell-of-alot more calories. *wink wink*

I only have 26 more days til my 40th birthday, so there is no way I will even be close to my original goal of losing 40lbs. I am not going to let that discourage me, don't get me wrong I'm very disappointed in myself. It was not an unrealistic goal back in January, but I can't dwell on that now. I weighed myself this morning and will use that as my new starting weight. So check me out next week and let's keep those fingers crossed that I can have a decent loss.

See you all tonight at the Mamavation Show on Mingle Media TV.

Love ya , Miss ya .... will try to make more time for my Sistas, I PROMISE!!
xoxo